Small update

What a wonderful way to spend a winter’s night.

The dark and mood-filled pieces by And One in my ears, cold and harsh wind in my face and the living, acting city around me. Bright, moving lights reflected from wet tarmac, brighter, static lights blinking in and out of existence as I trot along the various downtown districts and the staedy, gloomy glow of an overcast sky lit by the half-light reaching it from below. From where I am.

People all around me, even in the dead of night. Laughing, scowling, sober, ineberated, young and old, alone and in gropus, packs and circles of close-knit friendship. Even the almost freezing drizzle can’t put a stop to the dynamism flowing out of every nook and cranny.

And while Steve croons words of love, lust and excess into my ears, I look up in one glorious moment and see something that defines the area I call home: A big blast of red light hitting the sky and bathing me and everyone else and a great part of the surrounding cities with the glow of industrial output. Molten steel drowning out the darkness of night.

Perfect.

Excuse the lack of updates

I’m shuffling between two flats right now and am stressed because of the move, my sister’s birthday and unrelated work-stuff.

Regular updates should resume as of Wednesday next week. Until then, there will be sporadic updates only.

Also, have some awesome soundtrack tunes for one of the best games of last year.

Sometimes things strike later than you think.

We now have 2012. I’m thinking back to 2004. With help of a song released 1994. I could’ve waited two years, but then, well… I wouldn’t have had anything to write today and, let’s face it, I would have most probably forgotten my thoughts on this one until then. I mean… Two years. Huge swathes of stuff can happen in two years.

Anyway, 2004. A long-distance relationship. Several long-distance friendships. Those things began then.
The relationship also ended then, sadly enough. The friendships, for the most part, survived. Some are sleeping now. Some I… Cut. Some are active as ever.

But the relationship ended.

It was intense. It was wonderful. It was filled with excitement, much travel, great sex and interesting people.
It was also, as sad as I am to say this, build on a broken foundation.

We both entered into it with different goals, different states-of-mind and different assumptions.
And we both failed to fully communicate those as we spent most of our communication with more positive subjects.
So when the blow came, it came down hard. Even though I was the one who had been “dropped” it still was hard on both of us.

It was a really sucky time. It was a really sucky situation.
And yet… It made me grow and rise to the occasion and appreciate happiness more.

It wasn’t all bad. It wasn’t even mostly bad. It was mostly great. With a big, fat, unhappy ending.
But the memories? They will remain. And they are good memories. Strong memories.

Like these two songs.

Same Band. | Stone Temple Pilots.
Same Year. | 1994
Same Album.| Purple

I love Big Empty. I really do.
It’s a song that I dream to. I remember to it. Bittersweet memories that coax smiles, regrets, grins and a sense of terrible sadness.
And its mood is so terrifyingly good. It’s dark, it’s sweet-yet-heavy, like a bittersweet honey. It’s serene yet powerful.

But the Interstate Love Song has its high-points, too. It fits the year the most. And hits both of us at the same time.

Today: Something really new.

I was driving along the A2 tonight, when I heard a short snippet in a local radio show which showcased new music for a new year.

There they told me of 2:54. That’s the band’s name.
They were created by two sisters from Britain, they play late-80s influences post-punk/shoegaze, wear smeared mascara and black leather jackets and the band’s name is taken from a moment in a Melvin song that the two sisters found particularly striking and which happened at, three guesses and the first two don’t count, two minutes and fifty four seconds. The radio reporter than voiced something that I thought at that moment: “If that’s not nerdy, I don’t know what is.”

And, yes. It is.
It is exactly the kind of nerdy that I love and adore.
It’s also coupled with the kind of music I love and adore.

So when I got home I started googling “2 54″. Which… Took a while, to be honest.
That’s not exactly a term you can easily search. It almost reminded me when I first googled for the Vin Diesel movie “XXX”. THAT was a fun search. ;)

Anyway, I found them a little while later and simply purchased the EP. Sound unlistened.
And it was 3€ well spent.

So I will give you their first song.
And a link to their page.
And if you use iTunes, go and purchase their EP.
It’s just 3€ and it’s very much worth it. It’s good music. It’s new music. It’s fresh music. It’s charismatic music. And it’s music made with love and soul.

So, here you go.
Watch. Listen. Enjoy.

2:54 – Scarlet [Scarlet EP] | 2012 | Post-Punk/Shoegaze

And if you want to see what kind of music and style influences them, go their tumblr and listen to their posted music. If it makes you think of me… Well, that should tell you why I REALLY Like them. ;)
Tumblr: http://www.twofiftyfour.net/

The song they are linking to as I’m writing this post?
“Depeche Mode – “Blue Dress” (violator LP Montage)”
And I can’t tell you how AWESOME that is.

You can also listen to their EP, for free, here:

http://soundcloud.com/twofiftyfour

Me, out!
You, have fun!
Good night!

Let’s bring back the past, with something new! (But still old…)

The last few days have seen a strong re-kindling of old passions in me.

Battletech (everything pre-FedCom civil war)
The original World of Darkness
Shadowrun
Fading Suns

Those are back with a passion.

And pretty much all are plagued by videogames that are “Choose two!” out of this list of three:
“Successful, Widely Known, Good” (The only exception being the Mechwarrior franchise between 2 and 2:Mercs, as well as Vampire:Bloodlines. But as both franchises/games were pretty much shut down EVEN THOUGH they were excellent and made some good money… Yeah.)

One of the biggest stinkers was the last Shadowrun videogame, for the Xbox and PC.
A shooter set in 2031 between two unknown factions, shitting all over continuity and then being a bad game ON TOP of this all.
I think I don’t have to iterate how pissed I was.

Shadowrun has such great potential for a group-based tactical RPG with downtime and mission encounters/settings that it’s not even funny… Yet, we don’t get nothing of the sort. Even the SNES game was nearer to the P&P game than the 2007 debacle.

But!

The 2007 debacle gave us something.
Or, rather, gave ME something.

This magnificent song I wouldn’t have heard otherwise.
It was chosen to underscore the Atzlan/Aztec tones of the games and, in this fashion, is perfectly workable for the tabletop RPG as well.

It’s also a damn great song. :)

So, enjoy.

It’s “Baianá” by the “Barbatuques” and their album “O Seguinte É Esse”.

φύσηφόβος – The Fear of Nature, and Me

[I know that the Greek is probably UTTERLY mangled, but, hell, I never had any classes!]

I’m not really afraid of nature in as much as I simply don’t like many things that are considered “natural” by modern designers and most of western civilization.

This became apparent when I started shopping for my new place and most of my friends and family didn’t really like what I was going for: Hard angles, no “warm” colours, no plants of any kind and a strict adherence to a cubical and semi-symmetrical order. My living room is probably the most unsafe room for kids to be in, in the whole of Germany. The furniture is angled and has sharp and defined angles. There are next to no cushions. It’s all black and hard wood. Apart from the sofa, which is black and made out of some synthetic fibres, but is still rectangular and spots an interesting amount of hard angles for something not made out of a hard material.

I decided against a rug and took to a dark-brown laminate as my floor.

I prefer other things in that way, too. I love how the iPhone 4/4s look compared to their forefathers. I almost purchased an iPad1 over the 2 model simply because I don’t like Apple’s penchant for “rounded edges”. I want to feel the edges. I want them pronounced and crisp and straight and as perfect as possible. I want to have the illusion that I could [i]shave[/s] with my gadgets.

My mouse and keyboard are as rectangular as possible. I even got rectangular plates and non-rounded cutlery.

And on a greater scale, I abhor how many people seem dead-set to retain the human form “as is” because they consider it “natural”. Fuck that! Nature fucked up. We’re a messy, badly designed species and we should use all the technology we have to make ourselves in our image. Nature might have started evolution, but I don’t see a single reason why we should be bound by it when we have the capabilities to exceed nature’s design in favour of something more useful to our actual way-of-live.

If I could have the transhuman options of cutting out sleep, defecation/urination and uncontrollable emotional and neurological reactions, I would do so withing a heartbeat. If I could make a surgeon take out my natural eyes and implant me a set of high-def, stereoscopic, wireless-enabled cyber-eyes with a wide range of civilian modifications, I’d do so. Without even thinking twice. Just because I was born with something doesn’t mean I have to die with it.

The idea that we should bow down to nature and try to emulate it is something I simply cannot grasp.

We are Humanity. We are here now. And we are, in the long run, a very much endangered species. Yes, mostly by our own doing, I agree. I don’t want to contest that. Multiple generations of humans fucked up, badly and spectacularly, on the environmental macro and micro scales. We made sure that we have dark times in front of us.

But we shouldn’t only be looking into how we can “heal” our planet. (I mean, fuck, DON’T STOP! Keep going and work as hard as you can on this!)
We should also look into how we can adapt ourselves to survive in new environments. And we shouldn’t stop because of any “sacred human form” bullshit.

This is our world. Our existence.
We should be working hard on stamping our own stamp on us. Nature isn’t perfect in all things. It does things right, to a point. But we should look into ways to get things BEYOND that point. To further ourselves. To advance our state of being. To enhance our frail and stupidly-plumbered frames.

Societies should stop bowing down to gods which probably don’t exist and start standing up, taking “destiny” into their own hands. If any supernatural beings want to make sure that we don’t deviate from any of their plans, they are welcome to manifest and tell us. But as long as they don’t, why the fuck do so many people keep themselves bound to the tenets of faiths which were corrupted to serve the will of other humans for centuries?

Yes, I’m an atheist. I’m also a technocrat and a transhumanist and a hopeless romantic.

There is an unparalleled beauty in a sunrise. There is beauty in a rose. There is beauty in how eco-systems work and adapt and create.
I am one of those people who can stop in their tracks on a sunny day, pick a flower, smell the air and smile like a fucking idiot because it’s just SUCH a good day.
I hope each and every day that we will find out, somewhen, that we are not unique snowflakes. That there is sentience and sapience besides ourselves. Because frankly, that would shut some of my most hated anthro-centric philosophies right up.

Yet, I still want ourselves, as a species, go further than that. To stop limiting ourselves because some lines of research are labelled “un-natural”.

Let’s leave nature behind.
Let’s step forward and create and design and re-design and adapt and innovate natural systems around us and inside us and between us.
Let’s become gods ourselves. Forgers of our own survival, on our own terms, from our own wills and minds.

That… Kinds crept on me.
It should have only been a small commentary on how I don’t like round “edges” and houseplants.
I… Don’t really know why I kept typing. Take this as a stream of consciousness. But this just came out of me, and this IS how I feel. Even though I myself feel and see that some points are lacking definition and aren’t worded as clear as they could be. Or should be. But this, right here? That’s what just came out of me, as one long string of thoughts and impressions. This is me. A part of me. What makes me. What IS me.

Non Traditional Christmas.

Hi kids, it’s me!

Mr. Technocratic Atheist Grinch McScrooge.

But even I succumb to some christmas mood-swings. Remnants of my hands-off catholic upbringing. I’m not utterly happy with it, but… Well… It’s there. A
So let’s work with it.

And I did.
And one can combine christmas with being an utter nerd.
And I want to share this.

So, well, enjoy! :)

http://www.datpiff.com/Random-aka-Mega-Ran-A-Very-Random-Christmas-mixtape.289601.html

It’s not a style most of you like, yes.
But give it a chance.
Listen to the lyrics.
Have fun!
Have a great, friendly, peaceful day!

Yours,
Matt McGrinch. :)